Merry Christmas 2009

It's Christmas day. A day of giving and loving. Don't forget to give these free gifts away:

To your enemy, forgiveness.
To an opponent, tolerance.
To a friend, your heart.
To a customer, service.
To all, charity.
To every child, a good example.
To yourself, respect.
- Oren Arnold

Have a blessed Christmas my friends! God bless everyone.

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Love Between Two Hearts (I)

Thanks be to God, I'm able to be back...at last.

Maaf kepada sahabat2 yang selalu berkunjung ke sini tetapi disambut dengan kesunyian dan rumah yang kosong. Dalam lama saya berdiam, rupa-rupanya masih ramai yang tetap memberikan sokongan dan menanti-nantikan 'kepulangan'ku. Masih ramai yang sayang pula ni...hehe. Thanks my friends.

Bagi yang tertanya-tanya ke mana menghilangnya Mimie...don't worry. I'm still here and still alive :D. Walaupun last few entries saya dulu mungkin berbunyi sedih dan tertekan tetapi itu bukan alasan untuk saya berputus asa. Walaupun agak lama dalam retreat mode tetapi one thing I can assure you all, "I'm bad at giving up". Darah perjuangan yang mengalir dalam tubuh tidak mungkin berhenti selagi bernyawa. Hidup memang tidak semestinya mudah setiap saat tetapi kekuatan untuk menghadapi kesukaran juga tidak kurang hebatnya tersedia bagi mereka yang mencarinya dari Sumber yang tepat. Maksudnya, tidak ada sesiapa pun di dunia akan dapat dikalahkan oleh cabaran jika kita belajar untuk melihat cabaran itu dari perspektif yang lebih besar daripada cabaran itu sendiri. Cabaran hanyalah satu platform untuk kita lebih mengenal kelemahan kita dan bangkit bangun kepada tingkat kehidupan yang lebih tinggi, lebih baik dari sebelumnya. But with one condition, NEVER GIVE UP...berehat seketika jika perlu tapi jangan berhenti berjuang.

Adess...panjang lebar pula mukadimah saya...actually as the title above implied, this entry is meant to speak about love (yang pernah saya pending sebelum ini). Sebelum diteruskan, minta maaf kalau pembaca2 terganggu dengan bahasa campur2 saya kali ini sebab memang 'rujak' bahasa yang ada dalam otak saya sekarang...huhuhu.

Love between two hearts (man and woman only)...hmmm...what am I supposed to say about this? Since this entry is written a few days before my special friend's wedding day, I hope she can accept this as my online wish and gift for her wedding for she knows I couldn't make it to her big day which am totally upset with. Hopefully and pray-fully everything will be fine and blessed on that day.

To me, to love and being loved is one of the greatest wonderful experiences human beings have ever been privileged with. The ecstasy of feelings that love can bring is unique and can't be found anywhere unless you're in love. No wonder people came up with those sayings "tidur tak lena, makan tak kenyang, mandi tak basah"...and weirdly enough, it's literally true...hahaha. If anyone is right now experiencing or about to experience this enigma...I advise you, enjoy the moment to the fullest because it won't stay that way forever. In real world, true love doesn't always appear as easy as the tale famous line "they live happily ever after". When the first passion and excitement has faded away, real life with real challenges will take place. In this sense, love becomes a blend of laughter and cries which undoubtedly not easy to go through unless we are truly committed to each other. There must be a right balance between these two souls. Both should have an equal sense of desire and effort to make the relationship lasts till the end. Yes, disagreements may occur along the way, and the more we fight the more we see the faults, imperfectness, and all the not-so-smooth surface of our partner's character but I guess that's just how real love should be. To be fully committed to a partner means to learn to accept his/her imperfectness because you want to regardless of what negative messages your feeling is shouting inside you. Again, it's never easy to do this but it's well worth the risk.

To be in love never means no more cries. There are times when loving truly brought pain and heartache. That's a normal reaction of our wounded ego. When trapped under this terrible spell, I guess there's no other better way to be out of it than to keep silence and take time to see the whole issue from a calmer and clearer minded, detached from emotional influence. Spend some time in prayer. By doing this, I personally think we'll be given the power to humble our wounded ego. Then only we'll realize that peace of mind begins with forgiveness. It's not about how much pain our partner causes us due to unfulfilled/broken promises, etc, but it's about how much and how many times are we willing to forgive each time after being hurt. 70X7 times? Think about it :D

Nanti saya sambung...penat menaip...hehe

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Just A Short Note

Terima kasih kepada semua sahabat2 maya yang sering menitipkan pesan2/komentar2 yang baik di sini, juga setinggi penghargaan di atas doa2 kalian untuk kesejahteraan saya dan keluarga. Semoga Tuhan memberkati kalian semua.

Just a short reminder for me and for everyone...

Anyone can carry his burden,

however hard, until nightfall.

Anyone can do his work,

however hard, for one day.

Anyone can live

SWEETLY, PATIENTLY, LOVINGLY, PURELY,

till the sun goes down

and this is all life really means.

- Robert Louis Stevenson

P/S: Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines.

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Get Well Soon Mama..

I'm back. Feeling a bit better today. Still unable to type more than I could bear but will try my best to share a couple of encouraging lines here...

Hampir 2 minggu berlalu RL sunyi sepi tanpa suara tuan rumah...yes, as i have informed you all earlier my long absence was due to my unstable health condition, both physically and emotionally. I admit those 2 weeks and even up to now were very tough days for me to go through. I fell very ill and was depressed with almost everything and everyone around me. I was easily irritated and feeling gloomy and blue all the time...nasib baik 'my beloved best friend' sabar dan tahan dengan my unpredictable swings of mood time2 darurat begini...thanks dear for being a very understanding friend of mine :D.

Walaupun cabaran yang saya (dan keluarga) tanggung selama dua minggu ini bukan bertambah ringan, bahkan bertambah mencabar namun I truly learn a lot! I feel much better now not because my (health) problems have been solved but rather because of the peace that dwells in my heart in spite of the painful trial that me and my family have to go through now. In a blink of an eye, many 'bad' things happened in rows lately. Firstly, keadaan kesihatan saya sangat merosot...dan pastinya itu membuatkan bapa, mama dan family susah hati. Kemudian, soon after that dad was admitted to the hospital for 3 days because of anemia dan sedikit pendarahan dalam usus. Mama and my eld. sister took care of dad while there. Lepas tu, on the day dad keluar dari hospital, mama's father (mendiang KK Gaul B Majun) gave up his last breath and died on the ninth of October 2009. Belum habis berkabung dengan kepergian grandpa...four days after the funeral (last Thursday), all in a sudden, Mama diserang stroke yang menyebabkan separuh badan (sebelah kanan) lumpuh. Masih dirawat di QE Hospital hingga kini. She can't get up on her own. Can't talk too. Cannot even eat through the mouth. She can only eat using the tube that plugged in through her nose goes directly to the stomach. Pity mama...

Mula2 menerima semua hakikat ini....I was so devastated! I felt crushed and became more depressed. But after a lot of praying...akhirnya saya belajar sesuatu yang sangat berharga. Seperti 'dipukul' oleh sesuatu yang sangat menyakitkan, saya sedar bahawa di saat berat seperti sekarang, saya sepatutnya menjadi lebih kuat daripada selalu. Seakan baru sedar dari mimpi yang panjang, saya melihat 'kebodohan' membiarkan diri dalam kemurungan kerana perkara2 yang berada di luar daripada kemampuan saya untuk mengawalnya...I've been telling myself this...

When things are out out of our control, worry is futile. Have faith in God!

All my siblings turn to me and keep telling me "jangan sedih sangat...jaga kesihatan" because they know sadness and depression are great 'pantang' for my illness. I tell them...don't worry, i'll be strong....yess...I'll be strong for mama.

All I hope and pray now is for mama to get well and have her normal health back. May the good Lord grant my(our) prayers. I know mama is strong just like me...and I believe both of us will be able to get up and walk side by side again..very soon...I promise...I'll do everything I can to be healthy again...if not for myself, it's for mama.

Be strong everyone no matter how tough your life is...enjoy your happy moment because it will not stay long, appreciate your every challenging hours too because it will not stay forever either.

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Love and Relationship - pending

Been in silence for almost 2 weeks by now. Actually I have lots of things to write on here but just not in the right mood at the moment. I've been out of energy and terribly not well these days. Kinda dizzy and lethargic. I promised a friend to share my write-up on love and relationship but even this one need to be put off also....so sorry my friend for keeping you to wait some more.

To all RL readers, visitors...thanks for you endless support. Will resume blogging soon when I regain my health back. Wish you all the best of luck, health and happiness.

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Being A Bookworm Again!

Nothing much to write this week. Not because I'm running out of ideas....not exactly for sure. It just that I'm having my most enjoyable time with something that I've forsaken for quite a long time, so couldn't get rid of it for the time being. You must be guessing what is it actually I'm up to...hehe...something very special of course. Well, getting myself back acquainted to my long forgotten passion was not that difficult as I had predicted it earlier. In fact, reading has always been my all-time favorite hobby since childhood up to now. But due to many constraints, I almost lost the passion of really reading for these past few months. Being over occupied with other commitments made me to put reading off for a long time, which I really regret it by now.

Thank goodness, I've found my way back...huhuhu....so, it's time to be on silent mode again. Sometimes we need to be still in order to be refilled and refueled before we can go on to the next level of life's journey. Before I can share anything more valuable here and on my other blogs, let me polish my sense of 'hearing' and thinking through reading first.

Come go with me to the world of books!

....was thinking of writing an entry with similiar topic but different content on SAM tapi...hmmm...bisuk2 sajalah...:)

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Happiness is....?

Many people crave for a happy life. In fact, all living homosapiens either consciously or non-consciously has indeed been living for the quest of the one and only, the 9-letters word called HAPPINESS. Unfortunately, many –or perhaps I should say mostly – people has failed in finding the way to real happiness. Why? Simply because they have failed in choosing the right path that would lead to the right destination in the first place. Many turn to money, health, wealth, friends, music, job and even relationship for happiness but finally ending up in frustration when struck by reality that those things can make them happy (extremely happy at times), but can’t give true fulfillment. Money and wealth can’t love you back. Health decreases in quality as the years slip by. Friends can’t give you hope. Love can go sour and bitter. Music and job are pretty impersonal, in the long run.

So, what is happiness then? Different person has different view on what happiness is. What is your personal definition of happiness?

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