Monday, October 19, 2009 By: JMimie

Get Well Soon Mama..

I'm back. Feeling a bit better today. Still unable to type more than I could bear but will try my best to share a couple of encouraging lines here...

Hampir 2 minggu berlalu RL sunyi sepi tanpa suara tuan rumah...yes, as i have informed you all earlier my long absence was due to my unstable health condition, both physically and emotionally. I admit those 2 weeks and even up to now were very tough days for me to go through. I fell very ill and was depressed with almost everything and everyone around me. I was easily irritated and feeling gloomy and blue all the time...nasib baik 'my beloved best friend' sabar dan tahan dengan my unpredictable swings of mood time2 darurat begini...thanks dear for being a very understanding friend of mine :D.

Walaupun cabaran yang saya (dan keluarga) tanggung selama dua minggu ini bukan bertambah ringan, bahkan bertambah mencabar namun I truly learn a lot! I feel much better now not because my (health) problems have been solved but rather because of the peace that dwells in my heart in spite of the painful trial that me and my family have to go through now. In a blink of an eye, many 'bad' things happened in rows lately. Firstly, keadaan kesihatan saya sangat merosot...dan pastinya itu membuatkan bapa, mama dan family susah hati. Kemudian, soon after that dad was admitted to the hospital for 3 days because of anemia dan sedikit pendarahan dalam usus. Mama and my eld. sister took care of dad while there. Lepas tu, on the day dad keluar dari hospital, mama's father (mendiang KK Gaul B Majun) gave up his last breath and died on the ninth of October 2009. Belum habis berkabung dengan kepergian grandpa...four days after the funeral (last Thursday), all in a sudden, Mama diserang stroke yang menyebabkan separuh badan (sebelah kanan) lumpuh. Masih dirawat di QE Hospital hingga kini. She can't get up on her own. Can't talk too. Cannot even eat through the mouth. She can only eat using the tube that plugged in through her nose goes directly to the stomach. Pity mama...

Mula2 menerima semua hakikat ini....I was so devastated! I felt crushed and became more depressed. But after a lot of praying...akhirnya saya belajar sesuatu yang sangat berharga. Seperti 'dipukul' oleh sesuatu yang sangat menyakitkan, saya sedar bahawa di saat berat seperti sekarang, saya sepatutnya menjadi lebih kuat daripada selalu. Seakan baru sedar dari mimpi yang panjang, saya melihat 'kebodohan' membiarkan diri dalam kemurungan kerana perkara2 yang berada di luar daripada kemampuan saya untuk mengawalnya...I've been telling myself this...

When things are out out of our control, worry is futile. Have faith in God!

All my siblings turn to me and keep telling me "jangan sedih sangat...jaga kesihatan" because they know sadness and depression are great 'pantang' for my illness. I tell them...don't worry, i'll be strong....yess...I'll be strong for mama.

All I hope and pray now is for mama to get well and have her normal health back. May the good Lord grant my(our) prayers. I know mama is strong just like me...and I believe both of us will be able to get up and walk side by side again..very soon...I promise...I'll do everything I can to be healthy again...if not for myself, it's for mama.

Be strong everyone no matter how tough your life is...enjoy your happy moment because it will not stay long, appreciate your every challenging hours too because it will not stay forever either.

13 comments:

ison said...

Just heard about your mama here. Don't know what to say. Just pray n hope in God. You take care Mimie.

Mogoron said...

Ai... ba Kinoringan noh ot pagandalan tokou boh diti kinowowoyoon tongo moleeng. It kosusaan nu, kosusaan i dagai. Okon ko pususon it kosusaan dino, kembagu, kakali tokou id palad Yoh. Reton ku i iko'o sid saralom sambayangku. Kali-ali noh ki, pinsan mimie.

Umar al-Longobi said...

takziah sahabatku mimie atas pemergian mendiang. semoga mendapat keberkatan-Nya.

didoakan semoga ibu dlm keadaan stabil dan cepat sembuh.

begitu juga dgn mimie, semoga terus tabah dan semakin kuat berhadapan dgn semua ujian Tuhan.

salam perjuangan!

NONG said...

koromou oku membaca diti entry nu mimie...mokimaap oku tu alaad no aku nokosobut siti.Namun jauh sekali cuba untuk melupakan ko kie.
Firstly,TAKZIAH atas pemergian Datuk ko.Ada kami pigi ziarah tu sma2 YB dan beberapa rakan SAM..
Dan paling mengejutkan sya bila sya dengar mama tercinta mimie sakit. Elaan nu mie,mad ko nodumpaan pampang tagayo at kangkab ku.Sampod po ikau dino tu sudah no sumakit, odurunan po masalah migaganti namun saya percaya ko akan semakin kuat untuk kembali sihat seperti dahulu.
Kuatkan semangat kie Mie..jangan pernah menyerah pada kesakitan sendiri dan kesakitan insan2 yang kita sayang...sya tahu BUKAN MUDAH untuk kuat apa lagi bila masalah datang bertimpa2 namun percayalah bahawa sesungguhnya TUHAN punya rencana terindah disebalik semua ini..
Yakin dan Percaya bahawa TUHAN sentiasa ada untuk kita..

JMimie said...

Selagi hidup di dunia, kesusahan dan cabaran memang sudah menjadi hakikat pahit yg harus kita terima...amat berat tapi hidup harus diteruskan juga kerana kita semua percaya kita tidak pernah ditinggalkan bersendirian olehNya dalam menghadapi liku2 hidup yg sukar dijangka...

thanks Ison, Mogoron, Umar & Nong. Kata2 dorongan kalian adalah antara penghiburan terindah(source of comfort)yg dpt meringankan beban emosi di saat2 sukar spt skrg. Sya amat menghargainya.

Anonymous said...

hi mimie,
sy x knal ko tp sy rasakn yg ko ni mengalami masalah kesihatan yg serius. sy yakin n pcaya bhw setiap penyakit pasti ada ubatnya dgn izin Allah. cuma mungkin blm terjumpa lg. dlm dunia yg serba mencabar ni memg byk perkara yg kita rasa 'impossible' tp jd 'possible'. so, jgn putus asa. klu kaedah sains agak sukar menyelewsaikannya, apa kata gunakn pla yg 'mistik'. ini usaha namanya mimie. sy tabik dgn semangat yg ko miliki. ko seorg yg tabah, sabar, 'far-sighted' & 'educated'.
sy hampir menitiskn airmata bila terbaca artikel dlm blog ko ni. tp sy tahan2 jg. apapn sy berdoa agar mimie akan sembuh seperti sediakala dgn izin Allah SWT dlm masa yg terdekat ini. kopitamanan.

JMimie said...

Terima kasih anonymous krn sudi berkunjung dan berkongsi kata2 baik di ruangan kecil ini...sorry agak lambat bagi respon krn bbrp halangan yg tdk dpt dielakkan...sbnarnya saya notice jga komen sama yg anda tingalkan di entry lama saya (Part 7 - big tq 2 everyone) 2 hari lalu ttp blm bkesempatan mjawab...kebetulan internet connection pun slalu bermasalah. Apapun, sya sgt menghargai keprihatinan yg anda tunjukkan...ya, sya mmg bermasalah serius dlm kesihatan ttpi syukurlah krn di sebalik jatuh naik semangat yg ada, sya masih tdk hilang harapan...usaha masih tetap diteruskan..doakan agar segalanya akan smakin baik. Thanks...

LM said...

berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu mimie memikul. Jangan pernah GAGAL dengan Dia...

Gaaman said...

Doa saya agar Tuhan memberikan kekuatan kpd JMimie melewati saat2 yg sukar ini.

dawn said...

I just have time reading other blogs. So sad to hear what happen to you and I've been there. Only that I wasn't sick as well. As what u said the best we can do is pray & never give up. Ask what is best for you and take care of your health or others can't stop worrying about you too.. Love you always.. Dane & Dane

Maya said...

Kopisanangan dot pisambalan kembagu. Oliliyot oku no dot amu nokosombol sitid blog nu, okoni ko nunu ot keleed nga ogumu ot kopidsalang om karalow dot la'ang. Ambai-ambayon ku poma mambasa iti sinurat nu nga osolom ku pogisom sid nanad. Sintor banar no tu omu ko bubulun dot osusa sitid pomogunan, pialatan nopo om it nakatalib, pintatangaan om potilombusan. Sintor! Siti okoi dot mokimama'a dot kolingasan dino toruol nu om kenggaganan dot tongo kosusa'an. Amin....

MindaGuru said...

Jmimie, saya percaya Tuhan akan terus melindungi dan memberi penghiburan buat mu dan keluargamu..Ya dunia ini hanya tumpangan sementara saja..tempat kita ialah di Sorga dan saya percaya di sana penuh sukacita..
GBU..

DAN said...

be strong in GOD!

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